“Wherever it is we’ll be tomorrow, it
won’t be Kansas,” Crystal announced when she’d returned from the hotel foyer
after what was originally intended to be a routine phone call to Kai about the
tour itinerary. “And it most certainly won’t be Kansas City.”
“No need for
ruby slippers then,” said Thelma.
“So, if we’re not
going to Kansas, where are we going?”
Andrea asked. “Weren’t we supposed to be travelling from there to Chicago,
Washington and New Orleans?”
“It isn’t only Kansas
we won’t be going to,” said an emotionally drained Crystal. “It’s worse than
that. We’re not going to any of those other destinations either. According to
Kai, almost every venue in the country has cancelled our gigs.”
“What the fuck!”
Olivia wailed. “Why?”
“It’s the
result of all the negative publicity we’ve been getting,” said Crystal. “The
concert organisers don’t like what they’ve read and they don’t want to take the
risk of allowing us to get on stage.”
“I thought
there was no such thing as bad publicity,” remarked Judy.
“That might
have been true if we were a punk rock
group or some kind of edgy theatre troupe,” said Crystal. “But we’re not. We
flirted with fame and instead we found scandal.”
“It’s all the
fault of the fucking American media!” Judy sniffed. “They’ve fucking had it in
for us ever since we arrived in this shit-arse country.”
Of all of us,
Judy Dildo was the one most likely to agree with Polly Tarantella’s thesis that
Crystal Passion was the victim of a grand conspiracy. Most of us blamed our
misfortune more on the outcome of a series of unfortunate events. And this is
ironic given that Polly portrays Judy as the pantomime villain of the tour. She
seems to assume that every slight, every setback, every cancelled gig, police
harassment and negative press article was all part of a grand scheme whose sole
purpose was to bring about Crystal Passion’s demise. And the fact that Judy was
no more unscathed than Crystal does nothing to deflect Polly’s condemnation.
“Is there
anything we can do?” Jenny Alpha wondered.
“Yeah there is,”
said Jacquie who, along with her sister, was still incensed at our humiliation
at the Purple Robe. “We can get on
board a fucking plane and fly home. This tour’s been a fucking disaster from
the very beginning. Let’s just cut our losses.”
“We’ve still
got a few gigs to honour,” said Crystal. “We don’t want to cause any disappointment.”
“From what
we’ve seen so far, nobody’ll be disappointed at all,” chimed in Jane. “They
won’t even know we were ever supposed to be there. Let’s just head to the
nearest international airport and fly home.”
“When and where
are these gigs?” I asked.
“The first
one’s a couple of weeks from now,” said Crystal. “It’s in a city in South
Carolina. Rock Hill, I think it’s called.”
“South
Carolina,” sniffed Jacquie. “Hicks and hillbillies. It doesn’t sound like the
fucking Promised Land.”
“I vote we
cancel the gig there before they cancel us,” said Jane. “Those good ol’ boys
can lynch someone else. We can fly home to London and civilisation.”
Nobody took
Jane up on her suggestion. Crystal was too upset for any of us to want to make
things worse for her and I guess we still hoped that there might be some value in
carrying on. And it wasn’t much later that day that our fortune unexpectedly
seemed to change for the better. This time a much more cheerful Crystal summoned
the whole band to congregate in the hotel bar where the only people there other
than us was a bored woman bartender and an elderly hotel guest nursing a glass
of bourbon.
“Good news,”
announced Crystal with a broad grin and a glass of mineral water in her hand.
“We’ve got a gig arranged next week in New York State.”
“New York
again!” Bertha exclaimed.
“Not New York
City,” Crystal elaborated. “New York State. Somewhere near a city called
Syracuse. It’s a festival they hold in a field not many miles from there. It’ll
be just like Woodstock or Glastonbury. It’s called the Sisterhood Women’s Music
Festival.”
This
announcement prompted a varied response. Although we were all women and many of
us enjoyed the company of women more than we did men, some of us, like Andrea and
Judy Dildo, didn’t much subscribe to the more radical tendencies of the
feminist movement. For others like Olivia, Bertha and Jenny Alpha, there was no
feminist proposition short of compulsory male castration they wouldn’t subscribe
to. Although neither Crystal nor I were female separatists, we were generally
comfortable in the company of our radical sisters as long as the business of raging
at the unfairness of life didn’t get in the way of enjoying it.
“Where did you
find out about this festival?” wondered Judy who was the least enthusiastic of
any of us. Perhaps she was apprehensive of the generally negative opinion most
feminists had towards Heavy Metal and mainstream Rock music. “I wasn’t aware
that Kai had much to do with the American feminist scene…”
“He is gay,” said Tomiko as if that provided
an explanation.
“Since when has
being gay made a Man better informed about Women?” Jenny Alpha sneered. “What
the fuck can he do in a dickless
zone?”
“It was Simon
who’s organised it for us,” said Crystal. “Kai called him up on a hunch and
Simon just happens to be a friend of Ariel Golgotha, the woman organising the
festival. Simon told her that we’d played at the John Knowles Paine Concert
Hall and what a great band he thinks we are.”
“How is the professor?” I asked, as the only other
person who’d met him.
“Professor
Simon Kurrein?” said Crystal, surprised to hear him addressed in that way. “OK,
I suppose, though we mostly only chatted about the festival: you know, the time
and place and how to get there. We’ll be the first and only foreign women’s
band to have ever played there, which, in a sense, gives us a lot more license
than they allow the American bands.”
So, the
professor had come to our rescue for a second time: something Polly makes much
of in her Crystal Passion biography. However, I can categorically deny that
Simon flew from Logan Airport to meet us at Detroit Metropolitan Wayne County.
His contribution, though significant, was to endorse Crystal Passion to Ariel
Golgotha and thereby throw us a lifeline at a difficult time on the tour. He
knew very little about the Sisterhood Women’s Music Festival. He probably
thought that in a world where women musicians are mostly in the shadow of their
male counterparts the mere fact we were women was all the shared identity that
was needed. What he probably didn’t know so well was how militant much of the women’s
music scene had become in the 1990s. There were still women with guitars
singing pretty tunes in the tradition of Joni Mitchell, Tracy Chapman and Joan
Armatrading; but there was now a new scene that was sweeping away the cutesy,
effete, folky scene of women doing it for themselves. Inspired by the likes of
Courtney Love and her band, Hole (whose song Teenage Whore was a favourite of mine), and propelled by the likes
of Sleater-Kinney and Bikini Kill, this was a scene that owed far more to the
Slits and ESG (another of my favourites) than it ever did to the example of girls
strumming on acoustic guitars: however much their sex lives might challenge the
preconceptions of their male fans. And it was this, rather than some kind of
folksy, hippy-dippy guitar and girl scene we were expecting to find at the
Sisterhood Women’s Music Festival.
What worried me
was that Crystal Passion might not appear either old or new enough to satisfy
the festival-goers’ tastes. A feminist audience might be just as bemused and
puzzled by Crystal’s dense, ambiguous and elusive lyrics as any other audience.
Crystal might have been as passionate in theory as she was in practice with
regards to female empowerment, gender warfare and lesbian love (although she
never used terms like ‘queer’ and ‘dyke’ to describe herself or her sexuality),
but this wasn’t obvious from listening to her lyrics. Even when they’re written
down (as Polly Tarantella has done) there’s nothing specific or concrete in her
words at all. Certainly not anything as tangible as a proclamation of the
triumph of women against the self-evident evils of patriarchy and male
oppression.
Although we
didn’t get to meet Simon, I exchanged a few words with him over the phone
before we drove off to New York State. He was plainly sympathetic to our
plight, but careful not to actually invite us to play in Boston again. I guess
the adverse publicity we’d attracted no longer made that possible. And so it
was that a couple of days sooner than we needed to, we travelled back across
the narrow strip of Canadian territory to our next gig. Surely things could only
get better from now on.
“Wow!” and
“Gee!” and “Golly!” were the words Ariel Golgotha most often used when she
addressed us, although she also employed used such words as “Fuck” and “Shit” to
demonstrate that she wasn’t just the preacher’s daughter she actually was. We learnt
that her passion for women’s issues, as much as her lesbianism, was the destination
of a difficult personal journey that led from anti-abortion rallies in the
company of her father’s congregation towards a lesbian woman-centric life style
that her parents actively disapproved of. And given my experience with my own
less than sympathetic parents, this was enough reason for me to take a shine to
her.
But my attitude
was the exact opposite of Judy’s.
“Fucking
vicar’s daughter!” she exclaimed, when we were out of earshot.
“Seeing that we’ve
arrived early, Ariel has offered us two gigs at the festival,” said Crystal,
who chose to ignore Judy’s comments. “We’re gonna be playing on the first night
and on the last night as well. That’s one gig on Thursday and a second on
Monday.”
“For double the
fee?” Andrea wondered.
“Not quite,”
admitted Crystal, “But it’s a better deal than we were expecting.”
The Sisterhood
Women’s Music Festival was no Glastonbury, no Woodstock, no Reading, no Womad,
nor even the kind of free festival that used to be put on by local authorities
in Central London to show how hip the borough councillors still were. It was held
in a big field where it hadn’t rained for several weeks in which small tents were
being erected in steadily closer proximity to one another over the first day.
Not surprisingly for a festival organised by and for women, the toilet and
washroom facilities weren’t bad at all, though the makeshift bar was something
of a disappointment to those of us who preferred alcohol to soya milk and fresh
juice. But what was really weird, and surprisingly elating, was that there were
no men at the festival whatsoever.
“Isn’t that a
bit weird?” said Andrea when I mentioned this to her. “I mean, men are at least
half the population.”
“About fucking
time, I’d say,” Jenny Alpha remarked. “No one says fuck all when it’s only men who’re
in a pub, at a football match or on a golf course. The fewer dicks, pricks and
bollocks the better.”
Judy wasn’t convinced.
“You put a lot of women together and there’ll be bitching from sunrise to
sundown,” she said sourly.
“And you think
it’s any different when there are only men around,” countered Jacquie. “There
are always gonna be people who bitch. It’s only human nature.”
“What have you
got against women all of a sudden, Judy?” said Thelma. “Do you really think men are any better? I’d
rather be bitched at than raped or sexually assaulted. Men might not always be
the enemy but, fuck it, they deserve to be.”
“Yeah. Yeah,”
said Judy, evidently uncomfortable with this line of argument.
Not that any of
us were especially comfortable when we tried to settle down to sleep in the
cramped space of the rather small tents Ariel had available and which she
generously let us use. We hadn’t expected to have to camp out during our
American tour and I wasn’t the only one who’d never slept in the open air
before. Jane and Jacquie were vocal in their disgust at having to sleep in
borrowed sleeping bags on groundsheets laid over dew-damp grass. And Tomiko was
moaning that she’d much rather sleep on a futon.
Nevertheless, our
discomfort was partly compensated by the attention lavished on us the following
day by the other women at the festival. Never before—and probably never since—had
I ever felt so privileged to be British. Not that I’d ever had a choice in the
matter. This stemmed from the mysterious and persistent legacy of the Beatles’ Invasion
of the American music scene almost thirty years earlier. Whatever magic sparkle
the lovable mop-tops possessed, Americans were convinced that it had brushed
off on all and every one of their compatriots even if, by the 1990s, only Oasis
played music that remotely resembled Mersey Beat. While my musical reference
points were West Coast America and Detroit, Americans assumed that all we knew
and cared about were the Beatles, the Rolling Stones, Elton John and, at this
festival, Dusty Springfield.
Not only was I celebrated
simply by virtue of having been born in Britain and of being a member of a
British popular music ensemble, it was also because I was a woman. Here were
women amongst whom my shaved head and relaxed clubbing clothes made me feel
that I was at last where I truly belonged. We were in the company of women
whose dress and appearance was as miscellaneous and unconventional as the Crystal
Passion band.
It is fair to
say that Crystal was adored with a degree of unquestioning love I’d never seen
before, even when we’d played at lesbian and feminist events in the UK. The
very Englishness of her appearance—whether clothed or totally nude—only charmed
the women who gathered around her. In truth, I can’t remember whether there was
an occasion when Crystal actually did wear anything: I was so used to seeing
her nude. She was naked for at least some of the time and, just as in the UK, there
was nobody who’d be so uncool as to remark on this. It might even have been her
natural nudity that stimulated such adoration. Wherever Crystal wandered—from
book stall to food stall to poster stall; from the stage to the caravans that
provided both toilet facilities and hot water (and not a urinal in sight); from
the Volkswagen camper van to the tent—she was followed by female fans who
adored her despite not yet having heard her music.
There was one
note of discord, however, when one of the women, older than most and wearing
the peasant rags of the unreconstructed hippie, mentioned that she’d heard that
there was negative criticism about Crystal Passion in some of the American
media.
“Don’t concern
yourself about me,” said Crystal. “I’m only a visitor to your country. You
should be concerned about American women such as Ariel Golgotha who are more
often the victim of media assassination. If someone like me who does comparatively
little to further women’s rights attracts so much undeserved censure, imagine
how much worse it would be for Ariel if she was the centre of attention for reactionary
sensation-seekers in the media. I feel enormous pride in all of you who work
together in the struggle to make the world a better place for all women whether
they live in the mountains, the hills or the forests…”
“…Or the towns
and cities,” echoed one of the American women who’d been trailing Crystal wherever
she went.
“Of course,” agreed
Crystal. “For all women everywhere.”
I left Crystal in
the midst of her adoring fans and strolled off with Andrea to see what else was
happening at the Sisterhood Women’s Music Festival. Unfortunately, there was
little there that I hadn’t seen at other festivals. There were stalls selling
organic vegan wholefood. Stalls selling CDs and amateurish pre-recorded
cassettes. Stalls piled high with feminist and lesbian literature, where even
the badly-drawn comic books were deadly earnest. Stalls selling ethnic clothes,
which was different from what I was used to seeing in Europe only in that there
were more ponchos and sombreros rather than batik and cheap Indian fabrics and tie-dyed
tee-shirts. Although I soon got bored with rummaging through the ethnic chic,
Andrea was soon laden down with wooden beads, rattan mats and braided
hair-bands.
I didn’t surprise
me at all when we returned to where we’d pitched up for the night to discover that
the tent Crystal was sharing with Judy and Philippa was full of naked women.
And neither Judy nor Philippa were anywhere to be seen. I could just about identify
Crystal in the midst of the entangled female flesh where she was wholeheartedly
enjoying the intimate affection of American sisterhood. I’m not sure what my
feelings were to see Crystal with all these unfamiliar women, although I decided
against stripping off to join the fray. I might even have been reassured that
Crystal wasn’t making love with Judy. For the last few days I was beginning to
resent the greater attention Crystal was paying Judy who I couldn’t help
wondering, with a pang of jealousy, might have somehow superseded me as
Crystal’s favourite lover (if any woman was ever more favoured than another).
It was apparent
that this representation of the American Sisterhood appreciated Crystal for
more than just her music. For a start, it was unlikely that many had actually heard
much of it, even though our CDs were on sale in record racks otherwise mostly
crammed full of k. d. lang, Joan Baez, Tori Amos and 7 Year Bitch. I loitered
around Crystal’s tent as the lovemaking continued long after Andrea had discreetly
wandered off. It wasn’t only because I loved Crystal so much that I thought she
was far more attractive than the other women. One of them was plump, another painfully
thin (almost anorexic) and another dreadfully old. Of course, that was what I
thought at the time. These days, I’d be delighted to enjoy intimacy with any of
those women. Crystal’s affection towards other people was so universal that I often
wondered whether she discriminated on physical attractiveness at all. And then
she’d astonish me with a frank and honest appraisal of someone’s appearance:
both good and bad. But when it came to sex, Crystal never seemed troubled by
such matters.
The sounds of
passionate sex, let alone the smell and sight, soon became too much for me,
however many times before I’d heard, seen and smelt Crystal’s naked body. I
left the temptation of flesh behind and wandered over to the tent I was sharing
with Andrea and in which she was stretched out and admiring the wares she’d
bought.
“I don’t know
why you’re so disgruntled,” said Andrea. “It’s not because of Crystal, is it?
Or do you just not like Women’s festivals?”
“I like them well
enough,” I said. “And it’s refreshing not having men around. I just think that celebrating
our womanhood should be more fun somehow. And not in this happy-clappy everything-is-groovy
kind of a way.”
“From what I’ve
heard about some of the younger bands here,” said Andrea, who actually
preferred exactly the kind of music that I didn’t much like, “there’s gonna be
a lot more sound and fury than sweet melodies when they take the stage.”
Andrea was
right, of course, but not so much on the first day. In fact, the order in which
the bands and musicians were scheduled to take the stage was in inverse order
to the time of day when they’d be at their best. The first bands to appear on a
stage brilliantly lit by the afternoon sun had names like the Jerusalem Whores
and the Furry Fishcakes. The bemused women who’d turned up to hear them wore threadbare
hippy clothes and their long hair was visibly greying. A handful of younger
women—almost certainly the bands’ friends and family—were dancing
self-consciously at the front of the stage. And just when the younger music
fans who’d have most enjoyed the spat-out lyrics of songs such as My Flappy Vulva Lover or Peter Won’t, But Paula Does emerged from
their tents the music had become more folky and better suited for an afternoon in
a sunny park than a night of drinking and dancing in the open air. Now was the
time for singers with names like Margot Klein, Leanna Morris and Amy Jones to perch
on stools with their acoustic guitars accompanied by an all-too-earnest all-female
backing band. They performed well-meaning and allusive songs that celebrated
womanhood in a thoroughly wholesome way. It was all women doing it for
themselves and women surviving the horrors of heterosexual entanglement. It
wasn’t that I didn’t appreciate or even agree with such lyrics. After all, I’d not
been tempted into a relationship with a man for years. I just didn’t much like the
hectoring and sermonising.
It was when Margot
Klein had sung her last song—an encore, in fact—with its catchy chorus of “Make
Your Man Share the Burden! Watch him Stumble and Fall!” that the Crystal
Passion band was due to take the stage. The honour of being the final act on
the first night was simply a tribute to our status of being international. We
may well have been the only band that didn’t come from New York State. And this
time, all of us were on stage. Not a slimmed-down ensemble as dictated by
circumstances.
In the interval
between the Crystal Passion band taking the stage and Margot Klein reluctantly walking
off, acoustic guitar in hand while she waved appreciatively at her adoring middle-aged
fans, there was a DJ set laid on by a woman in hippy gear who wouldn’t have survived
a single second in a British Night Club. She even allowed gaps between records
which she thankfully didn’t compensate for with inane radio DJ banter. Her idea
of getting the audience ready for our set was to play songs by any and all of
the British girl singers she could think of: so we were treated to an uneven
mix of Joan Armatrading, Lulu and Sandie Shaw. She even played the Eurythmics’ Sisters Are Doin’ It for Themselves: a
tune I’d hoped never to have to hear again. I didn’t appreciate being lectured about
the virtues of “the conscious liberation of the female state” and being reminded
that “the inferior sex has got a new exterior”. While a few very bored hippies
were swinging their motherly hips to this preachy housewife-friendly song,
Bertha and Jenny Alpha were humping equipment onto the stage and Tomiko was
setting up her mixing decks under a canvas shelter a hundred yards away.
I was nervous
as I always am before a gig, but the signs were all good. I was sure we could
only shine after what I considered to be an extremely tedious DJ set. And the
audience which had thinned out as singer-songwriter followed singer-songwriter
was at last beginning to be filled out with younger women who’d be up for
something more upbeat and perhaps somewhat less self-satisfied. And many of
these women were in thrall of Crystal Passion as a result of her daytime charm
offensive.
Ariel Golgotha dashed
onto stage with disarming enthusiasm dressed in an odd mix of ethnic chic and
biker leather. She tried to address the crowd through the microphone, but all we
could hear was a muffled voice swamped by the inspirational lyrics of Joan
Armatrading's Me Myself I. And then
with a half-audible sentence punctuated by the words “Fuck”, “Shit” and
“Golly”, Ariel could at last be heard. She kept her announcement brief—possibly
because she didn’t really know any better than anyone else what our music
sounded like—but I don’t think Judy Dildo enjoyed being heralded along with the
rest of us as an icon of Women’s Liberation who was furthering the cause of
feminism through the vehicle of Progressive Hard Rock.
And this may be
why as soon as we took to the stage, Judy unleashed the unmoderated fury of
full-throttle guitar licks which instantly energised the audience’s younger
element and dismayed the older hippy chicks.
This was the
only set on our tour where we played the music we’d recorded in London just
before we departed for our American tour. At the time, we’d thought that the six
songs we’d recorded were unfinished work which would soon be accompanied by
half a dozen more when we returned to England. But we valued the opportunity to
try out our new material on an absurdly enthusiastic audience before we returned
to our more usual tried-and-tested repertoire. What we didn’t know of course was
that these six songs—on average no more than five minutes long—was to be our
final recording as the Crystal Passion band and that they would later feature on
an album with the portentous title of The
Last Word.
In many ways
this album is the most unsatisfactory and patchy release credited to Crystal
Passion, however much Polly Tarantella champions it as our masterwork. In those
days, it was expected that an album should last at least seventy minutes. And
this was to justify what was then the more expensive price of a Compact Disc
compared to a vinyl record. The six tracks we’d recorded for the as yet
untitled fourth album amounted to barely thirty minutes. So, what would have
been a very good short album—perhaps bolstered by the songs So-So Sower and Muscle Mary that we’d recorded on an earlier session as a potential
single release—was bloated to a full seventy minutes by an additional half an
hour of out-takes, half-finished songs found on Crystal’s personal cassette
player and a few songs that hadn’t been good enough for Seventy Doctors, the previous record.
Nevertheless,
the six tracks we’d recorded fit together very well and when it came for us to assemble
the album, it was because Philippa and Andrea insisted on it that the songs
were released on the album in their original sequence: even if they appeared
after a somewhat miscellaneous selection of those tracks, like Muscle Mary, that Gospel Records
considered might yet have commercial potential. And these six tracks featured
the whole of the Crystal Passion ensemble in all its miscellaneous glory in
arrangements that Crystal had agonised over and had somehow got absolutely
right. There was electric guitar and fiddle, saxophone and percussion, clarinet
and trumpet, backing vocals, lead vocals, acoustic guitar, and, keeping up the
rhythm, my keyboards, Jane’s drums and Jacquie’s bass. And it wasn’t the mess
that some of us had dreaded. With the help of Tomiko’s expert engineering
skills, it all held together as a coherent whole.
It is this set
of six songs that Polly so often proclaims as the definitive sound of Crystal
Passion and which she already has plans to have re-recorded by a set of Band Aid musicians. Perhaps there’ll be
someone like Squarepusher or Jon Hopkins playing my synth chords (though I
wouldn’t be at all surprised if they featured Elton John instead). Perhaps they’ll
have a decrepit Heavy Metal guitarist play Judy Dildo’s licks (but knowing
Polly’s hatred of Judy, it probably won’t be anyone who’s any good). And I have
no idea who’d play the role of Crystal Passion. Would it be Taylor Swift or Miley
Cyrus? Whoever it might be, I can’t imagine she’d appear naked on stage as
Crystal did at the Sisterhood Women’s Music Festival. And if Taylor Swift did
appear undressed in the cause of authenticity, I doubt whether she could carry
it off with as little sense of embarrassment as did Crystal.
The six songs
have perplexing titles like Curry Carousel
Chorus, Gloria in an Escalator and
Tell Me You Love What I Want You To Love and
although I now know every word by heart I still have no idea what Crystal was
getting at when she wrote the lyrics. I sometimes wonder if she means me when
she sings “Thank you, Kirsty” over and over again in Lamb Ram Community. Inevitably, there’s no explicit reference to
either ‘Pebbles’ or ‘Simone’ in her lyrics, any more than there is to a ‘Judy’
or a ‘Mark’ or anyone else she regularly made love with. Crystal’s lyrics
remain enigmatic well beyond the grave, however well they rhyme, scan and give
the impression of having meaning. What I do know is that I always burst into
tears whenever I listen to the songs in sequence. They touch me deep inside
even though I don’t know what Crystal was singing about and, as I’ve told Polly
many times, she never gave much away.
“Fuck,
Crystal,” said the Harlot who had to solemnly intone “Sanitary. Sanctuary.
Salutary. Sanity.” in You Carry an
Affirmation. “What the fuck is all this about?”
“It just sounds
good,” said Crystal.
“Not that good,” said Thelma who shared the
backing vocal duties with the Harlot. “And what’s it got to do with ‘Offer me
an Amphora’? Where do you get all this pseudo-mystical shit?”
“Do you think I
should change the lyrics?” Crystal asked gently.
“I didn’t say
that,” said Thelma. “It’s not that it doesn’t sound good. It’s just that the
lyrics don’t make much sense.”
And I don’t
think even Polly Tarantella would disagree with Thelma’s assessment.
The first and
only time I ever felt like a pop star, as opposed to the keyboard player in an
obscure uncategorisable music group was that night when we appeared on stage.
So, this is what it’s like, I thought as the women in the audience danced,
swung and moshed to music with complex time signatures, enigmatic lyrics and an
eccentric set of instruments. I didn’t know at the time that many years later,
when nobody could mistake me for a ‘babe’ and when I could no longer shave my
hair in case people thought I was on chemotherapy, that I would then be far
more famous for my role in the Crystal Passion band than I was at the time.
And what were
we like as a band when we were in full flow?
I’d like to
think we weren’t at all bad really.
There were some
truly talented musicians in the group. Not just Crystal but also Andrea,
Philippa, Olivia and Judy Dildo. And it was Judy who on this night, as she
increasingly did as the American tour proceeded, who made the greatest
impression other than Crystal herself. I’d be fooling myself if I were to claim
that Jane, Jacquie and I were much better than just about adequate. I’ve heard
far better rhythm sections on old Tamla Motown records and on almost any modern
Jazz record. And although Polly might be loath to agree, none of us, including
Crystal, offered what Judy Dildo could in terms of stage presence. And on this
stage, the two women were almost as one. Both were either totally or almost
totally nude. Both had guitars strung over their shoulders. And both dominated
the stage: Crystal with her inexplicable unassuming charisma. Judy with her Rock
Guitar theatrics and her teasing of the audience’s expectations. And whatever
Polly says, Judy knew how to play guitar. You can hear it on the CDs, but
nothing compares with the imagination and daring of the live show. If she was
still active, she’d probably have become famous in her own right. Rather than
as the object of Polly’s unquenchable rage.
And, just like for
a rock band, our audience clamoured for not one, not two, but three encores.
And we’d have gladly given more if Ariel Golgotha hadn’t brought the
proceedings to a close. Fortunately, we had enough material for as many encores
as might be required, but Crystal decided to give our American audience exactly
what they’d really wanted all along. And this meant that the third encore featured
the Beatles’ We Can Work It Out which
somehow melded into Walk On By and
climaxed with Nirvana’s Come As You Are.
No one could pretend that Crystal’s vocals sounded much like either John
Lennon’s or Kurt Cobain’s, but on this occasion Judy Dildo showed an unexpected
skill at singing with a rasped voice which just happened to harmonise well with
Crystal’s more folky voice.
“Fuck!” said
Jane as we left the stage. “That gig almost makes the American tour not seem so
bad…”
“That was
fucking awesome!” said Olivia.
“You did real
good there!” I said to Judy Dildo, swallowing for the moment my resentment that
she was sharing her bed with Crystal rather more often than I was.
Judy was
dripping with sweat, but she knew that she’d done a good job. But she wasn’t
going to let that detain her.
“Yeah. Yeah,”
she said distractedly before pushing her way through the crowd. “If you could just
excuse me please…” she said as she disappeared.
“Where do you
think she’s going in such a hurry?” Andrea asked as we watched her go.
I didn’t know,
but I knew well enough where Judy was later that night from the passionate
cries of lovemaking that came from the tent she shared with Crystal. And no
amount of intimacy with the now reconciled Jane and Jacquie could make up for
my hurt feelings.